two weeks, have gone by
things have been happening
lots, really

by God's grace, i got through last week
he sustained me, he was my strength
& i thanked him so much for that
after all the late night rehearsals,
after all the effort we put in,
investiture turned out great :)
i enjoyed myself,
hoped everyone else did too?
had six tests last week
i don't want to comment on them though

this week was a rather complicated week
had such a stir in my emotions
both physically & spiritually
but my week felt really long & draggy
though i knew the week was passing so quickly?
contradicting, i know
but thats just the way things are
i don't have much to say
& i'm surprised actually
i was really glad to have seen that night sky
it was such a beautiful sight
i could've stood there,
i could've stared at them
for, forever
it made my heart grin for just one night

service, learning to confess
& to let it go even after confessing
guess i still tend to struggle
with these kind of thing
sat inbetween xueting & xuanyi
felt good because i barely even
sit near xueting, ever ?
& thank you, liao xueting
for that OH SO SWEET drawing :)
i love it but i have yet to draw
smth for youuuu
grass patch, cell :)
missed cell though
it has been only a week ?
before cell started,
i spent quite awhile talking to xueting
she knows what we talked about
our heads were mostly facing upwards
talking about why this, why that
& i saw how amazing our God was
xuanyi did a great job leading
found out lots of things yesterday
before we all left,
i panicked, i was afraid
i felt that sense of desperation
i had to gasp for air
i couldnt breathe, i needed air
thank you joy & laura for being there
i needed that shoulder of yours, joy

God honoured & answered my prayer
the sky was not only star-littered
it was so pretty, the sky was red
orangey-red at least
i loved it, loved the slight drizzle
when i was on the way home
hoped it would've rained but
its okay, i loved it nonetheless
walked back, looked up
smelled the fresh air
& i was cold

i've got to start praying right now
i dont want anything to happen
i know God knows
i know he loves unconditionally
but he's testing,
& i've got to stand firm
to all those out there who
are going through a rough time,
BE STRONG for jesus
you've got the support from the
people arnd you so dont worry :)

TRILI HO :D
i miss youu, hur
i do remember you lying on nicky's bed
going through his yearbook
it was hilarious watching you laugh
i'm still waiting for you to come home
but its a fond memory :)
there's more to come, i'll wait !

i'm finding in the midst of my hurt
living without you,
life would never work
you're all that i want
you're all that i need
you're all that i live for
in this world